Coach Dean replied to my pitiful email with the following reply
Probably not a leg cramp.. probably a muscle strain. Ice. Heat before doing activities. Stay on the elliptical......do what you can.. control... heat, workout, don't run, do strength work.. iceA "strain" didn't seem too bad until I Googled it and found that it's actually a muscle tear and depending on the reference site recovery is 4-12 weeks. I called Dean and talked to him about Ragnar and he said absolutely not. I wasn't expecting that at all even though from what I read I knew he was right. My low-grade strain could turn into something bigger and take even longer to heal. My goal is to get running as soon as possible. Regardless, it is still very tough to pull out of a race that I had been looking forward to and planning for for months. I feel like I have let the team down but at least they have 2 weeks to find a replacement.
Dean did say to exercise and do what I can unless it aggravates the calf. Use the elliptical, hike, bike, whatever I can do. This is good news because last Monday there was a cancellation for Havasupi and I get to go with backpacking next weekend with my brothers. I am worried the calf will hurt or get worse but if I'm not running on it I should be ok, right? RIGHT?
I clung to the statement from Dean's email DO WHAT I CONTROL. Dean and I have many conversations about mental toughness, choosing thoughts and thereby choosing happiness. Do what I can control is something I can focus on. I can control my thoughts and how much I wallow in my new injury. I know I need to switch up my attitude and make better choices eating while I heal and stay positive and in the present.
So there you go. How quickly things change.