Yesterday I picked up cousins from the airport that are visiting for Thanksgiving. Since they flew in relatively early, I had extra time in the afternoon and went for a run around 4pm. The weather was really nice and I was able to wear shorts and short sleeve shirt. Once I got running, it was pretty warm. I ran a 4 mile out/back and worked at running it at goal pace.
My expectations for what it should feel like running are distorted and that is really hurting me. I expect a 4 mile, goal pace run to be easy, enjoyable, like I'm gliding over the ground. Afterall, its a short distance and isn't speed work. Although I ran the first 3 miles too fast, it was still labored. My breathing felt off, my foot hurt and it was kind of warm. I want every run to include the runners high DURING the run. With my expectations not being met, I lose more running confidence. How can I race this Thursday in the Turkey Trot 10K? How can I run my 20 miler this weekend? How can I even run and qualify for Boston? And on and on. Maybe after my 20 miler, I'll have some confidence back. Maybe after more speed work it will come back. I think what I really need to do is positive self talk and focus on what I can do.