Obviously this post is post-marathon but I did write it pre-marathon. I didn't want to publish it and publicly air my aches, pains and lack of confidence before the race. I didn't want the "you can do it" comments. But I am publishing it now in hopes that it may help a new runner, whether it is a 5K runner or a marathon runner, realize that the fears are normal. I'm also posting this so I can refer back to it and document what I felt so I can go back and say see...you felt that way last time and you Rocked It. Note: I did run a successful marathon and qualify for Boston
I am 4 days before the marathon and have a 3 miler to run tonight. I am on the fence whether I'm excited to run tonight or not. I don't have much enthusiam to run right now and that worries me. What if come Sunday I don't have the drive to run the mileage? Do I have to watch Austin Powers to find my mojo? (That's actually a good idea to watch a funny movie.) I'm hoping that the adreline will kick in for the race. Picking up my race packet on Saturday will hopefully get me excited. And setting out my outfit will put me in the right frame of mind.
Another one of my concerns is naturally can I even run the distance of 26.2 miles. Thinking back 3 weeks ago I ran 22 miles, so yes, I can run 26.2 miles.
The aches I have had over the last two weeks have been endless. I know its normal but everything becomes a mild (or big) concern for me. The latest one is since my 4 mile run on Monday has been an ache in the left lower quad that I feel when walking. It doesn't hurt or is painful but it is there. Today it isn't as bad. I'll see how the 3 mile goes.
I looked back on my half marathon posts from the Tucson Marathon in December and guess what. It wasn't until Friday, 2 days before that I felt excited. Ok, I'm doing ok.
I'm coming down with a cold I think. I emailed my coach and he recommended double dosing on Emergence C and lots of rest. Oh, and this is an "EASY" one, no stress. HAHA!!!
I'm worried I won't finish. I'm worried I won't qualify and I will have let people down, including myself. I haven't told many people at work because if I don't do well, I don't want them asking. My boss has a memory like an elephant and if he knew I was training for a marathon he would ask about it, for months. Last year when I was training for a marathon and got injured, 6 months later he'd ask about it. I really just wanted to be left alone.
Four more days. Rest, sleep, reduce stress, and don't worry. Piece of cake.